10 Typical Responses When You Admit You are Depressed (DEBUNKED!)

Spend some time in the nature Pfft, if I ever get myself over the edge of this bed …maybe I’ll go to the bathroom. List what you like about yourself Here is my list during my depressive cycle: I am useless I am hopeless I don’t deserve to exist Why am I still alive? Nobody…

Reason For Feeling So Lonely When You Are Depressed

Sounds pathetic, but it’s true. What you tend to do: Stay at home – you don’t want to bother anyone If you are lucky to find a friend who’s been through the same shit, or someone who is willing to listen no matter what and no matter when – dude, you are a lucky bastard!…

Does anyone care?

    You know that thing when you want to scream from top of your lungs “I just wanna die already” but you can’t because everyone would freak out and you’d ruin their day? The thing is – you don’t wanna really do it, you just want someone to pay attention and hear you out,…

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That time you thought you could go out but then you remembered you have to smile all night.

     

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How far can depression go?

  Depression is your treasonous enemy This song is from my 4 month long depressive episode in the spring of 2001. I haven’t listened to Moby since.     This is from my almost 2 year long depression in 2010/2011. I haven’t listened or watched “Drive” ever since:          Then during the…

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I Feel Nothing

  You feel nothing. You just want to feel something. Maybe not sadness, but something: rage, annoyance, disgust, fear, anger … anything. The reason why you want to feel something is to prove yourself you are still alive. Now you know why people do extreme things when in reality they are depressed. They are trying…

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Does anyone care?

    You know that thing when you want to scream from top of your lungs “I just wanna die already” but you can’t because everyone would freak out and you’d ruin their day? The thing is – you don’t wanna really do it, you just want someone to pay attention and hear you out, hear about how you feel and help you somehow so you don’t feel that way any more. That sadness that just tires you oh so much…. perhaps would give you a rest. You just want someone to be there, empathise with you and make you feel you are not a burden to them no matter how long it takes you to get all that crap out of you head. – Am I right? Am I? – You know I am.   But there is no one there. Not a single person will understand you. If you do force it on them, you’ll lose your credibility (if you ever had any). If you don’t force that talk, you are going crazy. Then you think you could post some subliminal crap on Facebook and the right person would read between the lines: “Life is shit” “So tired of this hurricane in my head” “I just want to end it all” “Why is nobody listening?” “I need help!” And what if you don’t get any attention? Like, no reaction, no comments, nothing? That’ll make you feel even worse. Then you think to yourself … “How can I say I am depressed but make it funny?” Ok, so you do make it funny. You do couple of ‘ha ha’ and if you are lucky one ‘are you okay?’. What are you gonna say then? – You’ll say something cryptic like ‘Ah, you know, life…” and that will be the […] More

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I bet you know this feeling …

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Carry this list with you

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Yup, it makes no difference whatsoever

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When you feel like you are 50 years old. Now you know why

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This cute quokka says: “Things take time, this too shall pass

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Coworker: “Hi, how are you?” Me: “Life is shit and I wanna die

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That time you thought you could go out but then you remembered you have to smile all night.

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(Over)Thinking.

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When they say "Go travel, it will do you good"

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How far can depression go?

  Depression is your treasonous enemy This song is from my 4 month long depressive episode in the spring of 2001. I haven’t listened to Moby since.     This is from my almost 2 year long depression in 2010/2011. I haven’t listened or watched “Drive” ever since:          Then during the Great Depression of 2013/2014 I completely stopped listening to music. Which is great because I have less to avoid today.   2017 – 2019 were completely off the charts in terms of my mental state. It culminated towards the end of 2018 and exploded in the summer of 2019. Every type of music would trigger a downward spiral, so I mostly focused on one dimensional beats. They were my anchor to the land so I don’t drown in the sea. I was hanging by a thread for like two years… These are the ‘anchor’ songs, which do remind me of that period, but I can handle them.           … or these:         *Don’t listen to these videos, they are sad af!     More

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Everyone: “If you’re depressed reach out!” Me: *reaches out!* Everyone: “God, you’re so negative!”

Why do I feel alone when there are people around me? Because I don’t feel I can tell them what I feel. More

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10 Typical Responses When You Admit You are Depressed (DEBUNKED!)

Spend some time in the nature Pfft, if I ever get myself over the edge of this bed …maybe I’ll go to the bathroom. List what you like about yourself Here is my list during my depressive cycle: I am useless I am hopeless I don’t deserve to exist Why am I still alive? Nobody cares about me. …sounds familiar? Read a good book Best thing a depressed person can do with a book is stare at it. For hours. That’s it. Watch a funny movie or TV show Been there done that. You know what I watched? Reruns of “Two and a half men”. You know why? – Because I’d seen it like 20 times and was the only thing my brain was able to consume. Take a long, hot bath Yup, done. Now what? Take care of a few small tasks See answer to question 1. Play with a pet I don’t have a pet. Everything dies here.  Talk to friends or family face-to-face This tip is the ultimate bullshit! You really think someone would listen what I have to say now that I am at my lowest? Ok, so let’s say they do listen you know what their advice would be? They would say “You have to go out more” or some bullshit like that. If they don’t want to listen – then how would you even be able to put on a happy face mask and pretend you are such a fun and upbeat person! Nobody wants to hang out with a downer! That’s why most of us just sit at home alone and pray nobody calls us on the phone so we don’t have to explain why we sound like shit.  Listen to music Yup, especially when sad music speaks to me. I cried my […] More

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How Do I Deal With Depression

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I Feel Nothing

  You feel nothing. You just want to feel something. Maybe not sadness, but something: rage, annoyance, disgust, fear, anger … anything. The reason why you want to feel something is to prove yourself you are still alive. Now you know why people do extreme things when in reality they are depressed. They are trying to induce a feeling. You don’t even remember how it is to feel anything other than sad, bland, empty. You have that crying knot in your throat all the time – it’s a new normal for you.     There were times I’d play ‘Rage against the machine’ or ‘Public enemy’ just to try to get angry or induce some kind of rage-like feeling – anything else but continuous emptiness, sadness. It didn’t help. After a while it became just noise. I was so devoid of any emotions that I wouldn’t even get annoyed. It made no difference.   More

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Reason For Feeling So Lonely When You Are Depressed

Sounds pathetic, but it’s true. What you tend to do: Stay at home – you don’t want to bother anyone If you are lucky to find a friend who’s been through the same shit, or someone who is willing to listen no matter what and no matter when – dude, you are a lucky bastard!   Then again, if your friend is also depressed then you are in for an addiction. It’s like you feed off each other’s bad vibes. When you are down it seems like every sad song speaks to you, right? That song is your drug. And then you play it on loop so many times it makes you feel nothing. That’s exactly the effect your depressed friend has on you. Either way chances are you’ll be alone because no friend is your real friend in those days/months. Your only true friend is the internet. More

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